Anything
“I had a constant, nagging feeling that God was real and this life wasn’t a game; it wasn’t about my comfort or my curtains or how much everyone like me and approved of me. Heaven was coming, God’s voice was clear, and I needed to quit pretending everything was lovely.” excerpt from Anything: The Prayer That Unlocked My God and My Soul by Jennie Allen
This is where I’m at. I feel like there’s more to me, to life. I know there’s more. I’m constantly asking myself these questions:
- What am I doing here?
- Am I wasting precious time?
- Is there more to life than this?
Even giving up TV doesn’t seem like enough anymore. I wonder what’s next. I’m pretty much prepared to give up anything. I know some of you will think this is crazy, and that’s okay. God will meet you where you’re at.
After all this daily wondering, I’m coming to realize that God, that Jesus just wants us to spend time with Him. I’ve always had more of the Martha attitude than the Mary attitude. I’m all about doing, doing, doing. When really I just need to sit. So, that’s what I’m going to work on. Sitting in the presence of Jesus. And everything else will fall into place.
33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6: 33-34
– Jill
I feel exactly the same way…and I too am more Martha than Mary. It’s really been pressed on my heart to take the time – to sit and be still. I know where my priorities need to be, but I really struggle with being still in the presence of the one who made me. I often wonder how did life get so busy that I can’t do the simple things that are so desperately needed. I know that I need to be much more in the right now – exactly at the moment I am in rather than always planning for the future or looking back over the past. I know there is so much God wants to do in my life – but am I missing his calling and gentle nudges because I’m so busy and distracted by life?
It seems like the first step is knowing what we need to do. Then comes the hard part. And for both of us that’s actually doing it, which would be doing nothing. Ha!
I pray that we both take time each day to sit in His presence, to just be. Right now (even though I am next to my computer. heh) I am sitting with worship music on, and that really seems to help. I just need to put aside all the distractions.
I think once we have taken the time to sit in His presence each day, then we can go out and do what we’re meant to do. And all those things that we think we must do won’t seem as important. At least I hope so. It’s such a learning process. I’m thankful for a patient God!
Jill, I seen you post about God, if you get a chance I pray you watch this video, it is very powerful about The Lord Jesus Christ.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TXOWyjB7d24&feature=player_embedded
I hope you have a blessed day, Shawn