“I had a constant, nagging feeling that God was real and this life wasn’t a game; it wasn’t about my comfort or my curtains or how much everyone like me and approved of me. Heaven was coming, God’s voice was clear, and I needed to quit pretending everything was lovely.” excerpt from Anything: The Prayer That Unlocked My God and My Soul by Jennie Allen
This is where I’m at. I feel like there’s more to me, to life. I know there’s more. I’m constantly asking myself these questions:
- What am I doing here?
- Am I wasting precious time?
- Is there more to life than this?
Even giving up TV doesn’t seem like enough anymore. I wonder what’s next. I’m pretty much prepared to give up anything. I know some of you will think this is crazy, and that’s okay. God will meet you where you’re at.
After all this daily wondering, I’m coming to realize that God, that Jesus just wants us to spend time with Him. I’ve always had more of the Martha attitude than the Mary attitude. I’m all about doing, doing, doing. When really I just need to sit. So, that’s what I’m going to work on. Sitting in the presence of Jesus. And everything else will fall into place.
33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6: 33-34